When you look at me

When you look at me... what do you see?
When you close your eyes and look at me... who do you see?
Smile, touch... closure... openness... happy... smile...
free flowing thoughts...
rhymes that do not rhyme... flowing... happy...

drawing... pretending... rough... strong... enough...

what else, do you see when you look at me?

tell me... everything... don't hold back...

inside of a happy bubble... inside of that happy happy moment...
inside of imperfection is IT...

your vision...

your vision of me...

your vision of me... of what I can be...

your vision of me... of what I can be... for you... to you... just what ME can be...

inside of imperfections of me... there is a girl with empathy, love and drive...

for herself...

for she looks... inside...

she sees...

she has a vision...

she IS the vision...

of HER... of what ME can be...

She is... perfection of the imPERFECTION...

When I look at me... I am happy!

Long Break

The need to keep positive thoughts is urgent as ever.

Smiles for no reasons are hard to come by these days. But trying.

"Baby" Boy is going thru first love at the age of 6. Her name is Adela. He loves her and draws pictures with hearts for her. He is growing up fast.

"Baby" Girl is headstrong. See myself in her more and more. She knows what she wants and goes for it. My brave little one... Sometimes standing against my wall of "firmness" (When snowing it's not a good time to go out in spring jacket).

Reshaping my body - sizing down, feeling great.

Running - for myself, when I feel like it I can make 5K in one haul. Feeling accomplished.

Wearing high heels with confidence... still hate walking on stones, but getting better at it. Pain is part of the process.

Enjoying happy moments outside of home... thief in me. The girl I was at 18... Dreamer.

Going back to school, feeling nerdy and enjoying every bit of it (being scared if I can manage, but happy). Looking forward to teach a bit next year.

Vacation

No plans (well... You know me, somethings needed to be checked, but really NO plans for the most part)
Weather cooperated or we cooperated with the weather... Love "not" planning... everything fell into place
Hike up random hill - challenge and proof I can handle even 18kgs of live weight on my back - playing the "sherpa game" with the kids
Knowing when enough is enough and turning back down (not giving up, but 2.5km hike up steep hill was enough for one day)...
Pushing my (our) limits on hike down from Chopok (3km thru stony ravine)... Again the sherpa game. Loving it... My legs not so much
Listening to talks and questions of our 5 year old for HOURS... when asked to be quiet for just a little bit... that lasted for... 15 seconds!!! (I counted).
Discovering that aquapark is also fun for adults with kids in tow...
Don't trust a man, when he says "that bobsled ride is easy, go with Annie"... Especially on the steepest bobsled ride (advertised as so)... Uff... Baby girl kept saying " mommy don't hug me so tight"
Wondering if falling in love with someone over again is possible... Trying...
Smiles and laughs of my kids are priceless... Another aquapark trip... more laughs
Suntanned...
Fit in a dress I bought 18 years ago - fun memories... Hubby says it's OK to wear in public :)

Love summer...

Spontaneous - random thoughts

Being spontaneous...

Trip to Prague

Vine and music with a friend

Dancing with strangers under a railway bridge

Smiles that are just meant to be

Crossing my own boundaries of fear - crossing that railway bridge twice... unsteady feet, train trembling... but happy

Changing plans to follow intuition

Listening to signs and exploring what is being shown to me

Be proud of myself just because

Seeing old friend

Saying NO to offer outside my comfort zone

Saying YES to something that feels so right... but is on the edge of a moral zone

Being happy

Hugging kids with passion and love

Dancing to random music (at home, no worries)

Petting green frog

Loving

Realizing that hope cannot be lost so easily

Open minded about things unexplained

Running out of chess moves doesn't mean end of the game

Learning to just let things be and evolve

Running - from nothing, but for myself

Morning sunshine after rainy day

Wet grass sparkles in all its green glory. Positive thing is that it's in no need to be cut. Just green, sparkling carpet of freshness.

Sunshine after cold rainy day can bring a spring in your step :D

Smile with no reason.

"Mommy, I love you!!!" beats "Mommy, I need...(fill in the blank)..."

Crocheting a hat, keeps coming very slowly, relaxation.

Mornings

One of those mornings, when I woke up without the help of the kids. 7AM.
One of those mornings, when I actually enjoy the sounds of their feet coming up to my bed.
Morning sunshine will be the only one for today since it's supposed to rain. Makes it more cherished.

Smiles! Kids! Love.

Is crocheting making me zen?

Waves are conquered

Finaly managed on 20th try to untangle the tangle of wavy hat magic. YAY to todays success.