When you look at me

When you look at me... what do you see?
When you close your eyes and look at me... who do you see?
Smile, touch... closure... openness... happy... smile...
free flowing thoughts...
rhymes that do not rhyme... flowing... happy...

drawing... pretending... rough... strong... enough...

what else, do you see when you look at me?

tell me... everything... don't hold back...

inside of a happy bubble... inside of that happy happy moment...
inside of imperfection is IT...

your vision...

your vision of me...

your vision of me... of what I can be...

your vision of me... of what I can be... for you... to you... just what ME can be...

inside of imperfections of me... there is a girl with empathy, love and drive...

for herself...

for she looks... inside...

she sees...

she has a vision...

she IS the vision...

of HER... of what ME can be...

She is... perfection of the imPERFECTION...

When I look at me... I am happy!

Long Break

The need to keep positive thoughts is urgent as ever.

Smiles for no reasons are hard to come by these days. But trying.

"Baby" Boy is going thru first love at the age of 6. Her name is Adela. He loves her and draws pictures with hearts for her. He is growing up fast.

"Baby" Girl is headstrong. See myself in her more and more. She knows what she wants and goes for it. My brave little one... Sometimes standing against my wall of "firmness" (When snowing it's not a good time to go out in spring jacket).

Reshaping my body - sizing down, feeling great.

Running - for myself, when I feel like it I can make 5K in one haul. Feeling accomplished.

Wearing high heels with confidence... still hate walking on stones, but getting better at it. Pain is part of the process.

Enjoying happy moments outside of home... thief in me. The girl I was at 18... Dreamer.

Going back to school, feeling nerdy and enjoying every bit of it (being scared if I can manage, but happy). Looking forward to teach a bit next year.